Changing Patterns

The pattern I'd like to change is the one where I get all this energy, excitement and commitment around taking action on something that moves my heart ... and then it fizzles. What is up with that!?? I get lots of things done, really!  I'm considered pretty competent, driven, resourceful and capable by my peers and friends.  What happens between the excitement and passion around writing a new blog and the gap that follows before the next one?

I can't keep waiting for a parent-figure to step in and nudge me or send me a reminder that my musing is overdue.  Time to put on the big girl pants and step into my writings with the passion that is constantly bubbling just under the surface.  And the time seems right.  

So many things are going well in my life ... blessings beyond measure.  My husband and I are moving to a larger apartment WITH A BALCONY!  We've loved the apartment experience at our current location and are so excited to be spending this holiday season going through our things - once again - and sorting out what stays, what goes, what we can gift to others, etc.

Our children are spectacular.  Really, they are.  Very good-hearted and coming into their own beings.  Loving.  Very loving.  We've had a significant death in the family and watching the cousins all band together and now connect in support of each other is so heart-warming.

And need I say anything about my exceptionally awesome grandson?  Of course I do!  He changed schools at the beginning of the school year and managed the adjustment so smoothly.  He's a hugger - such warm and loving hugs.  A great sense of humor and an affinity for Old Spice fragrances - LOL.

I LOVE my job - teaching English to refugees and immigrants at OACES.  My students are from all over the world and so interesting.  They're also incredibly respectful of teachers. They call me, "Teacher."  I get to be creative and the learning is definitely a mutual thing.

My organization, ProsperRochester, Inc. has been rebranding itself and a new, involved Board of Directors is pumping life into our direction and capacity.  We are all volunteers and do not tie ourselves to a "bricks and mortar" location, which keeps our expenses at minimum.  We take advantage of the MANY places and resources in the area that are available to all citizens for meetings, gatherings, events, etc. that keep our programming moving forward.  Our passion is respectfully supporting the passion of others by connecting people with resources.

Lastly, I'm not going to tell you about what's been troubling me as of late.  I'm not going to tell you today because I want to commit to coming back within the next couple of days and sharing the challenge I've been having as of late ... a longstanding challenge.  I'll describe it, let you know what I've been doing about it and share the frustration of feeling like I'm back at square one.  Maybe talking about it this way will help me move through it and beyond it. Oh yes, I WILL get beyond it.  I'm sure of that.  And, should any doubt try to sneak in there, I can look back at my constant flow of blessings as a testament that the Big Guy has my back.  Frankly, He's crazy about me :)

Someone Moved the Boxes!

Yes, I know I have not done a good job of regularly blogging. I'm hoping that my new business partner, who is a social media maniac, will inspire me to be more consistent as he puts our organization, ProsperRochester, on the media map.

Now, about the boxes.

I have this straight line of boxes in my head.  Some are filled, some are partially filled, some are almost empty.  They aren't fancy boxes, just clean cardboard boxes.  Each one represents a person or a part my life that I've comfortably compartmentalized and organized logically so that I can manage them.

But the other day, Lo and Behold, someone kicked the damn boxes spilling contents everywhere!  Some of the stuff in one box mixed with the stuff in another box - what a mess!  

I stood there, hands on hips, looking at the boxes and it occurred to me that the people and the things in my life don't belong in boxes.  They do not need to be controlled or "managed."  A little order is useful, but too much order is constricting and fosters inflexibility.  I'm feeling just a little bit excited (and a little nervous) about revisiting the boxes and consciously beginning to empty them, deciding what goes where and whether or not they need to be in boxes at all.

I'll keep you posted.